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About twilighthues.com

Hi, welcome to my blog twilighthues.com. I'm Pneuma, a Japanese American child incest abuse victim/perpetrator-turned-activist. My goal is to unlearn unhealthy habits by treating my complex PTSD symptoms and figuring out ways to be happy with myself through various types of trauma therapy.
2023.08.22
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Memoir

Ending the Cycle: Japanese American Daughter’s Survival and Release Part 2

Chapter 8: Japan I got accepted into one of the most prestigious universities in Japan with ease—because they had a depa...
2025.06.04
Memoir
Memoir

Ending the Cycle: Japanese American Daughter’s Survival and Release Part 1

Part 1: My Roots Chapter 1: Parents My father made thick, heavy photo albums for each of us siblings. The tradition star...
2025.06.01
Memoir
Journal

“Mysterious Skin”: A Rare and Unflinching Portrait of CSA’s Aftermath

Mysterious Skin is one of the most profound films I’ve ever seen, largely due to its realistic portrayal of the long-ter...
2025.05.28
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Journal

When Trust Becomes a Weapon: Grooming, CSA, and the Lessons of ‘Abducted in Plain Sight’

Jan Broberg's story in 'Abducted in Plain Sight' reveals how predators weaponize trust. A survivor's reflection on grooming, CSA, and the trauma that outlasts 'happy endings'."
2025.05.18
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Journal

You Don’t Have to Be Abused to Abuse a Child — But I Was, and I See It Everywhere

This is a continuation of yesterday’s entry, where I wrote about why I’ve chosen not to have children. Today, I go deepe...
2025.05.17
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Journal

Being the Change: I Will Not Bring a Life Into This Twisted World

I used to think I would get married and have children by the age of 25 — the same age my mother got married and had me n...
2025.05.16
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Journal

When Showering Feels Impossible: How a CSA Survivor Manages CPTSD and Self-Care

For trauma survivors, even a shower can feel impossible. After days of struggle, I finally did it — not from healing, but because I was grossed out.
2025.05.15
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Journal

When Miso Soup Has More Soul than Western Veganism: A Cultural and Dietary Comparison

Explore the irony of Western veganism versus traditional Japanese plant-based eating habits.
2025.05.11
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Journal

How Eastern Astrology, MBTI, and Ayurveda All Pointed to Me

When I had ChatGPT generate a profile for me based on my birth date and time using both Nine Star Ki and Four Pillars of...
2025.05.08
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Journal

Mourning My Lost Childhood: A Comic Book about Young Caregivers

Watashidake Toshiwo Totterumitaida is a comic book by Midori Mizutani about young caregivers (or young carers). The titl...
2025.01.23
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