CPTSD

Memoir

Ending the Cycle: Japanese American Daughter’s Survival and Release Part 2

Chapter 8: Japan I got accepted into one of the most prestigious universities in Japan with ease—because they had a depa...
Memoir

Ending the Cycle: Japanese American Daughter’s Survival and Release Part 1

Part 1: My Roots Chapter 1: Parents My father made thick, heavy photo albums for each of us siblings. The tradition star...
Journal

“Mysterious Skin”: A Rare and Unflinching Portrait of CSA’s Aftermath

Mysterious Skin is one of the most profound films I’ve ever seen, largely due to its realistic portrayal of the long-ter...
Journal

You Don’t Have to Be Abused to Abuse a Child — But I Was, and I See It Everywhere

This is a continuation of yesterday’s entry, where I wrote about why I’ve chosen not to have children. Today, I go deepe...
Journal

When Showering Feels Impossible: How a CSA Survivor Manages CPTSD and Self-Care

For trauma survivors, even a shower can feel impossible. After days of struggle, I finally did it — not from healing, but because I was grossed out.